Random Thoughts

Awake. And craving for Angel's burger and Krispy Kreme. Good thing my brother bought me Angel's...but bitin. I want more!!! Lol.

My hand still hurts but not as much as yesterday. I think I'll hold off on the doctor bit. Am scared to go to the doctor...I think I'm sick. Something's not right with my body but I can't figure it out. My weight's dropped big time...I think I lost 10 pounds in the last couple of weeks..and still losing more. Really weird. Now I have to change my wardrobe since almost all my pants are too big for me. Haist.

I thought of LG again earlier and wondered if he was asleep or out. I quickly stopped myself. I don't wanna wonder anymore or think of what he's doing or where he is. It's just gonna lead to me hounding him once again. I gotta let go of him, in that way. Can't bring back the past, he's happy and loves someone else no..can't forget that. But we're still friends and I can live with that.

Over the weekend I f*cked up my friendship with D. Well, not my fault exactly. I was just honest enough to tell him that just because we got history doesnt mean I'm willing to gp to bed with him. Seems he took it bad. Just when I thought we were gonna be ok. Why did I ever think we could be friends? Haist. Better stop forcing it, doesn't seem he just wants to be friends. And I don't want to be his fubu. Pft.

Wow. I think I've rambled on for as much as I can already. Almost time to fetch the little boy from school. I'll just read a bit. Am back to reading books by the way, gives me a chance to escape reality a bit. Am currently reading "Never Let Me Go", so far so good.

'Nuff said for now...