Awake

Woke up from a dream with LG in it. Again. I guess I miss him that much. Haven't heard from him, except for an acknowledgement of something work related. I'd like to think it's because he's with royalty. But my gut says it has something to do with Friday or his post.

Makes me sad. His post. That he feels that way. Reassured him that whatever's he's thinking won't happen unless it was him. But I know it's futile. I wish I could go to him and hug him tight. Until he sees reason.

Cold. Indifferent. I hope he won't be when we see each other. He seems to be that way now. Am making lambing but...nothing. not in the mood. I hope it's not about royalty too.

Am rambling again. I doubt I can go back to sleep with these thoughts on my mind. I wish he was going to the xmas party tom...or I could make him aya to meet up after...

I hope am wrong. That I'm overthinking. That this is just one of his moods that will pass.

I miss him. :(