Old Friend

Talked to an old friend today and he put things right back in perspective. I questioned a lot and he threw back questions too.

Am I happy? Has this choice of mine made me a better person or not? Why did I choose to stay? Why do I love LG in spite of everything? Do I love him just as a friend or more?

And my answers were still the same answers I had before. That yes, I do love him, more than a best friend. Yes am happy because I choose to be. Yes this has made me a better person, because I have learned a lot. I strive to be a better person because I don't want to disappoint. In spite of everything I choose to stay simply because I love him. I understand him more now and I want him to be happy.  I want more but am content with what we have. 

In short, he gave me that periodic slap in the face I need when I get to my moods. When I wish for more that what I have. When I yearn for something I know I won't get. When I get jealous and envious of someone else. When I long for someone to take care of me and want me and love me for who I am. When I wish I belonged to someone.

Thank you my friend. It's been awhile since we talked yet you brought a smile to my face and enlightened me today. I will buy you cofi when we see each other, whenever that would be. :)