LG

I look at him and smile. Thankful I met him and have him in my life. He's an ahole and insensitive sometimes but thats him. He's sweet, caring, passionate, makes sense, makes me smile...the list will go on and on. Yeah, i love him. Still.

We may not be a couple but it feels that way. Our friendship is something I will always treasure. Fight to maintain even if we go our separate ways. It's a friendship thats been through a lot. Wherein silence can be comfortable between us. Wherein there arent any secrets - my side at least. I know he has but it's his nature to keep things to himself. There are times we dont get to talk about anything else aside from work but thats ok. Sometimes we dont get each other and fight but we eventually make up and move on. He's the only guy I've been so comfortable with. I wasn't like this with G, even if we were together a long time.

I get why we can't be a couple. He's got things to fix in his life. Himself, for one thing. He's still at a loss on what to do with his life. We know each other too well. And it can be both a good and bad thing.  I dont think a relationship would work if I keep on worrying if I'm the only woman in his life. Because I know, right now, if I push for it...I may lose him again. The love he has for me isnt enough to sustain a relationship. Because if it were, it's be me in his heart and not royalty.

Maybe someday we'll be together. Maybe we were meant to be,  eventually. Maybe he'll realize I could make him happy and he'd change because he loves me. A lot of maybes. We never know what may happen in the future. All I can do for now is enjoy what we have and not wish for anything else.

We make a great team. He's my bestfriend. Worst enemy. Partner in crime. Best sex ever. ;)

My special love. My one and only love. Always will be.

'Nuff said.