Down Once Again

Feel tired today. Tired of fighting, of holding on. Then I'm suddenly wishing for more than what can be given. I feel as if am hurtling down a tunnel of depression once again. I wanna talk to someone but I know I won't talk at all. I'm complicated. I can understand and be patient with people I care for but no one understands me. I've stopped looking for someone who would..I only get disappointed. I guess I just want to feel appreciated..feel that I have importance in at least someone's life (or a few people)Not only me but my team. Feel that am a princess for someone. (Hate the word but can't think of a better one) When it rains, it pours. What started out as work related has branched out to personal feelings. WTH. I feel I've given too much...and didn't leave anything for myself. I stretched myself too thin once again. But how does one who hides how she feels communicate that to the rest of the world? Can't. So don't. Maybe someday someone's gonna care so much to go through me and uncover what's inside. Damn, I need to recharge. ASAP. Can't be like this tonight.