Friend Zoned

So it's been confirmed. I've been friend zoned. Guess I hurt him too much and he's had enough. He doesnt trust me anymore because I doubted him. My bad, I couldnt move on from the past. Because it hurt too much.

Guess we both hurt each other, more than we knew. Words left unspoken and questions unanswered...maybe I should let it be and just continue to love him. Affection, appreciation and intimacy are gone...just wish it didnt end like that. I should learn not to expect appreciation, as I dont make him smile anymore. I know him too well. I know he has sama ng loob. Among other things. That's the bad part of knowing someone too well...and I couldnt reconcile everything I knew with my actions.

I wish he understands and knows me well too, as well as I know him. Because I dont feel he does. If he did, we would have probably met in the middle and this wouldnt have happened.

I keep on thinking that this is for the best, for both of us. But I also miss what we used to have. It's different now, everything's about work...just like before. Maybe that's why we were meant to meet each other, to be partners at work and nothing else.

I dunno. At lot of things on my mind. And I dont want to think anymore. I'll just let things be for now..the more I try to fix it, the more it gets messed up. I'll just learn to deal with the pain and the memories...