Deja Vu

Same thing, same reasons. No time for it when all that was needed was an occassional msg of lambing. I dont get it. But I guess it's just not meant to be. I'm scared of going through the same heartache all over again, just because I didnt accept things and move on. My mind and heart's in a jumble, they're fighting. I love him but I have to accept that we just can't be a couple. That we can only be best friends. I still don't know how to deal with this. If I continue what I'm doing, how am feeling...I'll be crushed when he starts dating again. I'll still be jealous, still be possessive. When it's not even right because he's not even mine anymore. I need to draw the line somewhere. I need to find or meet my own set of friends or folks to go out with. We have our own paths now...and I dont want to suffocate him anymore. But where do I draw the line? He's my drinking buddy, travel buddy. I dont even know if he still likes that am there. I cant just tag along when he gets invited, heck those folks dont even know me. It's hard to explain all these, because he wont understand. He's wrapped up in his own problems and mine are mine alone. No sense in adding more to his.