Don't Let Me Go

Why would you say happiness is near when I don't even know if I would pursue? You're my happiness now and I don't have plans of changing it. Please don't do this to yourself, to us. You say you don't have a hold on me but in a way you do. Because whatever you do, my heart belongs to you. Even if you say you can't make me happy, can't you allow me to make you happy? Because that's what makes me happy. Being with you, taking care of you, seeing you smile, making lambing to you. I don't believe in miracles but if they happen then good for me. I've been forcing myself to think of you as a friend and yet here I am, still believing that if it's meant to happen it will. And that there is a you and me someday. You say the outcome's not gonna be good, either way. When there's a chance it would. You've thought of all the reasons you could to explain why it won't work. When these reasons can be overcome, if we want it to work..if you do. Sometimes I feel that I'm just not good enough and A is (was) You act as if I've fallen in love with someone else. When I didn't. And I know that's not gonna happen. I love only one person and that's you. I know in my heart I do. It would take a lot to win my heart, that person has to surpass you. Yes I'm assuming now that you love me and I'm bold enough to tell you. Because the way you're acting tells my gut a percentage of my assumptions are true. I just want you to tell me straight. Tell me what's in your heart, not what you think is right. Stay or go? I want to stay but you're pushing me away, in preparation for something we don't even know if it would happen. Break my heart one last time if you would. But think about it before you answer. Because I don't want any regrets. And I hope you decide to let me stay. Because I'm not ready to let go. I don't want to let go. I'm afraid to let go. Am frustrated. Seeing you like this but not wanting to talk about it. I want to talk to you about it but you closed the door. Not open for discussion. Understandable, we're at work but you won't go anywhere with me after work naman. :(