Gone too soon

I lost a smoking buddy, coffee buddy, confidant, stressball, partner in crime, my superman, drinking buddy, a best friend, the love of my life. The person always with me wherever I go, except when we go home to our houses. The person always there for me when I need someone, either to listen to rants, lend me a hanky, collaborate on with ideas, have fun with especially when we're feeling funky and a lot, lot more. I love him with all my heart and he may have not loved me the same way, but our friendship was something I never had before, even with my ex-bfs...something precious.

This is a huge change. All these years it's been him...I made him my world.  A lot of memories with me, both good and bad, but something I will always treasure. And I was so happy last week....some good things never last. :(

Now it's time to learn to be on my own. How? I dunno. But I respect his decision. He'll always be in my heart. And I hope that someday, we'll find our way back.

Maybe someday...