Uncertainty

I will always be uncertain of things. Maybe coz I know there's no commitment. I always think that I shouldnt, that we're the best of friends and our relationship's complicated. I have trust issues and I try to overcome them, placing my full trust and believing there arent any more lies. But this darn instinct wont let me rest. The best I can do is not to act on it. Let things be as there is nothing I can do. I love and care for someone who is still trying to find his way. I know he cares for me too but in a different way. I tell myself to be content with what we have and for the most part I'm happy. But it breaks my heart to think he'd be with someone else and not just me. But I understand that's how he is. He is a guy after all. I remember last week when he said he was trying not to think of how I broke his heart. It broke my heart to hear it...for I never intended to do so. I love him so much that I am willing to wait...until the time comes he finds his way. Right now, this is what we have and I'm happy. Because I know I am important to him.

A girl just wants a guy who will treat her like a queen...his only queen. And thats the only thing missing now...that it's just me and no one else in his heart and he's happy.