Gut Feel

My gut feel is killing me. It's telling me they're back together but I dont wanna believe it. I wanna trust him this time. And I'm experiencing an internal conflict. Because previous experiences have shown me that he cant be honest with me about her. I'm really scared...that they're back together and that he cant be honest with me this time. That my heart will break once again and I may not recover fast enough. I dont think I have recovered yet from the Zambales thing last June.

But I will try my best to keep calm and let things be. It's hard but I will try...hard when you know someone too well.