My Mistake

Continuing to trust you in my heart while doubt was on my mind. Should have been the same for both. My mind and heart constantly fought. I let my heart somehow win and I gave it to you but my mind was always questioning if I did the right thing. My heart would say I did, as I felt that you cared through your actions. But I misinterpreted. Those were acts of caring for a friend, nothing else.

I also let the messages affect me, that damn stalker knew where to hit me. For the most part I let it slide, telling myself I knew that's how you are. But the fear of losing you once again gripped me and I went overboard.

There's no one to blame but myself for these mistakes I have made. And now I am cautious..for if we become too close again I might hurt you again, and hurt myself in the process. It's hard to pick up the pieces, it's like trying to forget all those memories we had together. I would rather not think about them for now, as it would only make things harder for me.

Have to start all over again..like I just broke up with someone. Only this time there was no breaking up, since there's no relationship. Have to get used to the fact that we're best friends and nothing else. Kinda hard when you're in love with your best friend, but who said life was fair? Maybe someday I'll meet that someone who'll make me smile and make me think life's fair.